We just got back from our family vacation to the Outer Banks.  We went with my sister and brother’s families as well as my husband and 2 stepdaughters.  During my trip, I had many “baby” moments as were were traveling with seven children ranging in ages 2 to 16.  But I noticed as the week went on that that my thoughts weren’t completely focused on NOT being a mom.  Of course I had the occasional “what would it be like if I were here with my baby?” thoughts but more so  I felt enjoyment by spending time with other people’s children.  This is something I haven’t truly felt in a long time.  I have spent a lot of time avoiding other people’s children because of my own fears and jealousy.  It’s not something I am proud of but part of the process I guess.

For the first time in a very long time, I didn’t feel jealousy towards my sister and sister-in-law for having something that I don’t but rather just enjoyed being Aunt Renee again.  I also read a post from Justine from Ever Upward that reminded me that I am a mother to many people in my life.  And while I may not have my own child, it was a reminder to me that I do have lots of children that I enjoy in my life.

Here are a few of them: